well, ders ALOT of stuffs that happen lately. and i'm telling you ppl. forget about the 19,21,22may post. ayte. maybe, just maybe i wasnt in a right state of mind. yes. yes.

haiish..


dis purple-d post is for a very special some1, whom i am close to, hope you'll read dis. but slim chance u will. hehs. =/

okay, i knw things have been wild n crazy n weird for both of us. especially when we both have confessed about our feelings towards each other. it seems ohh-so-lovely to have some1 being there for you. when you knw everything will be fine and alryte.. its like, you have search everywhere, for that Mr Right and suddenly you realize that the one that fits the puzzle is him, the one who is always there for u, through all the ups and downs.. 'yes, he is the one', your heart says at first.. but i aint knw why, the weird feeling keep on haunting me. i believe, to get into a relationship with some1, we need to feel free and not weird and uneasy and uncomfortable and have i meantion WEIRD? but sadly, thats exactly how i feel when we went out yesterday. i wan nothing more but to feel comfortable, and laugh like how we used to b4 the confession but, idk why, i just cant. its not you, its me.. i cudnt get control of my own emotions. i feel uncomfortable wen ure around me. i cudnt look at u in the eyes. i feel like i just wanna stay away from u. i knw that ure extremely elated to knw bout how i feel (or felt?) towards u.. i knw u really hope that i cud be urs one day.. but yesterday was just plain WEIRD. i cudnt imagine wad we will be like if ive accepted. i bet ill be hiding in a way.. i didnt mean to hurt you.. or any other guy in dis matter, but in dis situation, i have to think about my feelings first. i mean, i dowanna go on and den "play" with your feelings in a way when i'm feeling weird. i mean, eversince zim broke up with me, everything seem not to be ryte. i duno weda i'm afraid to get into a relationship, weda i'm afraid to get hurt, weda i'm afraid to lose someone again? idk.. but wad i do knw is that its too fast for you to ask me for a relationship, its too early for you wanting to give me hugs and you need not to send me home. haiish.. i'm sorry.. but i'm telling you dis altho u alr knew abt the promise ive made to myself n that is : i'm not getting into any relationships until i'm done with my Olevels.. u, asking me to be ur stead, gf, wadeverr yesterday was a big mistake especially wen u knw wad d answer will be. u even asked my best girlfren weda u shud. she said, 'no, u shudnt'. and u said that ull listen to her but in the end, u still wanna give it a try.. so thats one bad impression, another is u fell asleep infront of me wen we were studying, and another is *ehems STINKS. haiish.. so i'm sorry..

&i'm sorry if this post have offended many ppl.. i'm not trying to be a perfectionist or wadeverr, but that is just how i feel. nvm, for i do know that :

Life is a series of choices potentially taking us to many places, and even as you think prior tragedy that you could not possibly survive, there is still a choice in how you go on..


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